I haven't posted in a long time. Summer came and things got busy, and then I got really, really lazy. I have been in a funk for the last few months where I have been a pitiful stay at home dad. I haven't been doing my job. I should be fired. Updating this blog is only a small part of what I haven't been doing.
I also have not been bothering to keep up with house work. Not cleaning, not cooking, nothing. I don't know what happened. I have just lost all my motivation. I have not been a good husband, and I have not been a good father. You could take the last 5 months and just throw them away, because I have. I need to get back into living life. I need to stop just watching it go by.
One of the side things about losing motivation is I had lost about 30 pounds. Even while unmotivated I didn't put it back on, until lately. Over the last month I have put back on all the weight I lost. I have been eating whole boxes of cookies, tubs of ice cream, anything that is bad for me when no one is around to see me. I know why, I am looking for the food to change my mood and make me happy. I guess I have some things in my head to work out.
I think I have gotten out of this spiral. I have started eating better and starting next week I will begin jogging. I use to like to run when I was younger. Hopefully this is just the beginning of a healthier me. I have notice my children have been putting on weight with me. That is my fault, and I am ashamed that I have let that happen.
I am trying to be a better dad and husband. It isn't hard. I know what to do to be the best I can be. I need to stop being lazy, get off the couch and do what is best for the family.
We have a brick patio that is falling apart. There is a short retaining wall on one side of it that needs to be replaced. The sand is getting out and that makes the back couple of rows and especially one corner start to sag and get all messed up. Every year I have to pull all the ones that are messed up and put new sand down and try to get the bricks back in level and in the right pattern. Not a huge job, but doing it on a 97 degree day with high humidity was probably a bad time to do it. But at least it is done.
Wow, I haven't posted in a while. Seemed like nothing that exciting was going on. I guess that is the way that life is sometimes. There are a million things going on, but you get so wrapped up in you life and your family you forget to appreciate everything and notice all the good stuff.
Well summer is here. Me and the kids are spending as much time as possible outside. As a stay at home dad I think it is important that I make the kids be active and busy all the time. I don't want them sitting around inside and watching tv. The rule is no tv until after 5 everyday. It seems like once you turn it on, it is hard to get it back off again.
I help coach my 10 year old's basketball team. She is taller and stronger than any of the other girls by far. Last game she score 14, and shot 7 for 12. Very good shooting percentage. On Saturday though she was 2 for about 20. The other girls just kept on passing her the ball, and she just could not get the shots to drop. It was a different gym than normal and the rims where a little bouncy. No one told the girls they had to pass it to her, and in reality a lot of her shots were off of offensive rebounds. But I started to feel kind of bad for her. The whole team seemed to expect her to win the game, which they eventually lost.
Later on when someone asked her if they won she said no, but very excitedly said that she scored 4 points. Almost like that was more important. I am told at this age it is ok for them to be more proud of their individual accomplishment than if the team won or not. I hope she isn't going to be one of those players who is more worried about her stats than about the team.
It is a four day weekend for the girls. The wife is even taking off today to stay at home. Not sure exactly what we are going to do all day. My oldest needs a poodle skirt for school so I know the wife is going to be spending some time sewing that.
I will probably make this a homework day. Start studying spelling for next week. Amanda has so many things going on during the week, swim two time, basketball practice, and Wu Shu it is hard to find time to get all the homework done. So we use the weekend to get ahead. She doesn't like it, but the reality is that if she doesn't there is just to much going on during the week. We are cutting out Kumon. We were using it for math, but I never saw any real improvement. I think that the 15 minutes that we spend on that a day would be just as good if we used flash cards to practice multiplication and division.
Does anyone else make their kids study on the weekend? How about Kumon, anyone have any luck with it?
Yesterday was about 72 degrees and sunny. Actually got to open up the sunroof on the car. Picked up the girls from school and took them straight to swim class which lasted until about 7. Didn't get to enjoy any of the nice weather with them.
Last night was some severe weather. I slept through most of it.